Where Does Life Begin

 If I could change life, I would I mean, after all wouldn’t Well want to change something that has happened  

In this lifetime, God is giving me strength to overcome more obstacles than I even thought was possible. Your imagination cannot even gather all the things that are possible in this walks of life there’s ups there’s downs, sideways, crossways, ocean waves, and all the above that will try to destroy everything you have if you let it he’s called Satan !

We can gather and do the best we can with what we’ve been given because after all me when none of us have been given an application being a widow has endured the hardest hardships of my life there’s never been There will never be anything easy about it. I wasn’t ask if I wanted to do this and if it happens to you, you’ll not be asked it’s scary. It’s so hard you lose your right arm. Your soul is ripped apart and you can’t even breathe but yet you’re expected to go on every day and smile like life is great. Well it’s not Down to the nitty-gritty. Let me tell you it is not there have been days. I have crawled my floor, begging God to take this away or let me die from it because it was so painful and yet here I stand today to talk about it Philip Martin has been  dead six years this year on February 8. I can’t even believe how time has gone that fast watching the clock go and go and go. I’ve watched cars fly by and tears roll down my face. The river ran dry or perhaps time truly does help pain. I’m better than I’ve been in 6 years well probably longer than that because he had the stroke 5 years earlier. The feel of human touch can make a person withdraw into a deep empty shell that you don’t know how to describe or comprehend. How do you get out of this tunnel and learn to move forward: 

I’m learning and I’m happy to be going through this journey knowing that Philip is at peace and he wants me to be happy.  XOXO,

Confused but Learning