Through the Storm “Surviving His Death”

 Some food for thought today as I walked around to see the progress of the seeds I had planted a few weeks ago. I think back as I watch these Elephant Ears start to pop out of the ground ( pictures below) as tiny babies, yet to grow so huge and beautiful. This happens to be my very favorite plant in the world.  “When I was small we would go down randomly to my Granny Hardy’s on a over night trip ( I guess because I (my mom & dad, thought she must live 5 hours away, why else would we have to pack up everything to go for a overnight stay) she lived in Villa Rica, GA (1 hour 30 minutes max lol) guess back then it made more sense (🤷🏼‍♀️) as I’ve gotten older I go sometimes for a day to visit my cousins and back home lol. Anyways my granny lived in a low income apartment complex and they all looked just a like. Every time we arrived my granny (❤️❤️) had (accidentally 🤣) forgotten something at the store and just happen to have some money out to send me straight to the store (...

 If I could change life, I would I mean, after all wouldn’t Well want to change something that has happened   In this lifetime, God is giving me strength to overcome more obstacles than I even thought was possible. Your imagination cannot even gather all the things that are possible in this walks of life there’s ups there’s downs, sideways, crossways, ocean waves, and all the above that will try to destroy everything you have if you let it he’s called Satan ! We can gather and do the best we can with what we’ve been given because after all me when none of us have been given an application being a widow has endured the hardest hardships of my life there’s never been There will never be anything easy about it. I wasn’t ask if I wanted to do this and if it happens to you, you’ll not be asked it’s scary. It’s so hard you lose your right arm. Your soul is ripped apart and you can’t even breathe but yet you’re expected to go on every day and smile like life is great. Well it’s not D...

  There comes a time in life where you realize that you don't have to please everybody else just yourself. To be ok with the person you look at in the mirror, you go to bed at night and you wake up to each morning is set Heaven ready and ok with themselves is the time you finally realize "I done all I could do God". Maybe it wasn't the right choice for everyone involved, maybe you failed your children in ways that they will never understand. Someday their children won't understand either so you just know you did ok with what you did, made mistakes but at the end of the day ask yourself "Did anyone die"?, did it scar you so bad you can't go to work tomorrow? Good then carry on and you try to do better than I have failed to do. When you can lay the ball down and know you've chased that dream, did you win? I don't know I got side tracked 15 times trying to get to the finish line. Life, got in the way! Life held me down when I wanted to go, life ...

 Long ago,  I learned to let things go— To loosen my grip,  to let love flow. Sentimental at heart,  but I had to be wise, For everything good  would meet its demise. So I became detached  from what I couldn’t keep, Letting go of the dreams  that crumbled in my sleep. I’m not one to hold onto fleeting things, No trinkets,  no photos,  no borrowed rings. But feelings carve deep into my core, Each moment we share  becomes something more. It stays with me,  though I may not cling, For memories live in my heart not things. In our laughter that echoes through the trees, Gathering branches in the autumn breeze. Playing music beneath the moonlit sky, Howling tunes as the night drifts by. All leave my heart full, But never too heavy to fly. The pictures could burn,  the trinkets turn to dust, But here in this body,  you will always live in trust. Etched in laughter,  alive in space, Your presence remains,  your warmth,...

 It’s so sad to think that this is honestly what life has come down to. Strangers talk more than people you’ve known your entire life, visiting is almost non existent anymore.  I think is it just me, but it’s not really, it’s everywhere. A phone call from point A to B is the expected communication in today’s society if you’re lucky, because it’s rush here or there. I hate this stage of life it doesn’t bring me any joy anymore and it’s not about going out and finding your own joy it’s about why bother. What’s it gonna do end up in the brush pile with the last stack of broken glass. I do see how as I get older it is easier to stay more alone rather than go out and try to do something. It’s one of the biggest reasons probably to just stick to everything online. Communication, shopping and learning have become the modern way to do things and now funerals are online with a viewing so heck why not start early. Cheaper prices for a funeral surely, I mean no reason to have any viewing...

 So often we miss the mark by simply being selfish. I am forever grateful that Jesus did not choose the day of crucification, to choose himself over us. A pondering thought, and such a scary thought would be and should be in our hearts & minds always is this; “Lest I gain the whole world and lose my soul, what would be to gain”. Oh Lord help me to be more humble and have a greater desire for others, than I do of myself.  “For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?” ‭‭Mark‬ ‭8:36‬ ‭KJV‬‬ I’m already losing the battle so I’m already losing me