When Reality Comes

 It’s so sad to think that this is honestly what life has come down to. Strangers talk more than people you’ve known your entire life, visiting is almost non existent anymore.  I think is it just me, but it’s not really, it’s everywhere. A phone call from point A to B is the expected communication in today’s society if you’re lucky, because it’s rush here or there. I hate this stage of life it doesn’t bring me any joy anymore and it’s not about going out and finding your own joy it’s about why bother. What’s it gonna do end up in the brush pile with the last stack of broken glass. I do see how as I get older it is easier to stay more alone rather than go out and try to do something. It’s one of the biggest reasons probably to just stick to everything online. Communication, shopping and learning have become the modern way to do things and now funerals are online with a viewing so heck why not start early. Cheaper prices for a funeral surely, I mean no reason to have any viewing in person everyone you talked to is online. You don’t even have to clean up just sit in your bed and watch a funeral, shop or pay bills & chat with people. I would give this all up to go back to my childhood when i could dream about anything and believe it would come true. Those days are gone and this is the new real life not just the reality show now it’s not a preview of what’s to come, no tryout to adjust to. The real life world has come down to this, if your lucky to have your children at home, your parents alive or your spouse still with you please I hope you know how blessed you truly are. In the once beautiful life I took for granted I wish a thousand times over to have back is the most precious memories of all. Heaven seems so much more sweeter every day I live i promise you that. 


Brokenness is Real,

Patti

I’ll add this here: it’s a broken world and i have no desire to be in it anymore. I wont do anything to change it but as i sit here talking  to God I will not lie to anyone because God knows my feelings. I have come to a crossroads that may bring me much turmoil within myself yet if it comes to face me i must suffer it out to live through. I see a lot of adversaries in my future being as every demon i face will try every measure known to sway my thought process. Im old school yet im crumbled with a weight inside my soul that must be faced. God gove me strength to do the truth and mot back away from it in fear of losing the one person I cherish most. I am not will not and can not let the disrespect keep going. Not today Satan not tomorrow either. You're trying to use this against me and i cant let you win Patti  🥲

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