January 12. 2014 1st Post

 If you have a chance to make things right today, I beg of you to do it. Tomorrow will never be promised us and today is not done. People expect only good to come to us, but good can always come through trials also. My husband and I are examples of just that. For those of you who may not know our story: On December 21, 2013 my husband developed the flu, and was very sick. I rushed him to the hospital the morning of the 22nd because I could not get his fever down (104.5) they treated him and said yes he has the flu. Home again we believed everything would get better with the Tamiflu. One week later he was still sick, and had a terrible cough, it was the weekend so not much we could do. On Sunday my daughter-in-law went into labor, so him not able to go I went for us both to welcome our new grandson baby Silas, born on Monday December 30, 2013 at 4:09 PM, love him so much and would never change my time of being in Labor and Delivery with my son and daughter-in-law. Precious moments that I will cherish forever. I arrived home at 8:00 PM on that day. My husband said at 9 PM he was going to lay down, I said I was coming shortly. I fell asleep I was worn out, and was a happy new Nana. At around 1 AM on the 31st I heard my husband coughing and ask if he was ok and if we needed to go to the hospital he never said anything, so I figured he was being stubborn and fell back asleep. The next moments where life changing. At around 2ish, I woke up to Philip falling in the floor. I jumped up and went to him, realizing he could not move. I turned on the light to look, and his face was drooping and he could not walk, with the adrenaline rush I picked him up and put him on the bed and said "Philip I think you have had a stroke" his words where "I think you are right" , you see those are precious words to me, because from there the stroke paralyzed his voice box and he wasn't able to speak very clear from that moment on and now the trach is in place and no voice to hear his precious words. While calling 911 my memories begin to fade out some because the magnitude of this was so great. In disbelief my world became unclear from that moment on. The roller coaster has not stopped and the days and night have become very long and hard. I have spent two weeks at the hospital with my husband laying in the hospital in SICU and no way to think or even grasp what had happened. He still remains there while I begin to try and hold our life together by God's mercies. 13 days today this ride has not stopped on the ventilator and off the ventilator, aspiration in the lungs many times, pneumonia, 2 surgeries, to try and help with things, one day he was up in a chair the next back on the vent. Doctors telling me we are living hour to hour. So many visitors that love and support us. Phone calls to the point my daughter had to man the phones I could not do it anymore my mind was crazy. My husband had a massive stroke from the flu and from the cough he severed his main artery to his brain. He was a perfectly healthy man and our lives changed forever from the flu, how could this be, how Lord was my question. But not anymore my only praise is to the Lord and master that says he has got all power and he is in control. I stand on his promises, and I know my husband and in his right mind he to would stand. But as his wife he is so weak and as his wife I must stand for him, and that's what I will continue to do. All my love and thanks for the many prayers and calls, visits and love sent our way. Philip is strong and my God say's he has got this. Please take today and love one another and fix things between you and God, I beg you, I never thought it could happen to us, but it did. Remember in your storm, is when God is working his miracles  God's will be done!! My strength cometh in the morning!!