Through the Storm “Surviving His Death”

 Time changes everything even when we don’t realize how much is different. Somethings can never go back to what they were no matter how much you wish it could. It changes daily before our eyes, but only when a person is gone do you suddenly become more aware of the difference each day becomes. I wish so badly for my best friend to be back here with me (yet I would never wish her back to suffer another day) selfishly my heart wants to pick up the phone and call her; I can hear her beautiful voice now, with a gentleness that I know there would be a smile on her face, she’d say “Hey” and I would just know by her tone she was happy to see my name pop up on caller id. Somedays she would be too sick to talk and I could quickly tell it was more than she could do for a time. I would try graciously to tell her to rest and call me back later if she felt better. Today I just wish I could get a moment of time back like many others I have learned once again the true values of life are not objec...

 If I had the words to say, I would definitely say them: I have tried my very best to come up with the right thing to say, but I’m still trying to wrap my head around it all.  “A Good Samaritan” is what I know and a hundred prayers answered right here. God, has never failed and he never will…..yep even when it’s hard to wrap your head around it. Why I am still in shock I don’t honestly know, because I am a living, breathing testament to God’s Almighty Power, Love and Grace. Even in the darkness he knows what we stand in need of.  Thank you Good Samaritan, may God richly blessed you far exceedingly more than you can imagine.

Dedicated to my best friend of 31 amazingly blessed years; Kathy Blackstock I’ll miss you more than anyone will ever know, you was and will always remain my greatest cheerleader and I will love you forever. In life I’m learning sometimes one person must be broken, for someone else to heal. I said it best thinking of Philip passing away before me: “I’m thankful it was him first because I would never have wanted him to endure the pain of the last 5+ years. I can easily say the very same thing about my best friend Kathy , I’m thankful she didn’t have to be left behind to endure this pain. Her ultimate healing came and her final race was won; while someone was left broken they both finished their course.  Thank you God for the strength you have given me to hold on a little longer and definitely a lot more tighter than I thought I needed to. Death was swallowed up in victory and though my heart feels so heavy and my soul feels so empty, I can truly smile because Heaven got in their way....